Have you ever been so in love that it hurts to tell everyone around you,even your best friends .. Thats how i feel, only. I know I'm not in love .. it just feels like it.Because, my feelings for you are so strong .. And i can't help it. You've always been there for me,we've had our laughs and memories together .. and i just don'twant all of that gone when i close my eyes ..Because, everything i've done for our relationship,was worth it. Because in the end, we'll still be best friends.No matter what .. even if you mean more to me ..I'd rather be someone then no one to you ..


No one knows how i feel, losing people in a matter of weeks,months or even days. No one knows, because i can't trust anyonewith the secrets that rely on my life. I'm always asked constantly, who do you trust with your life ..I can't say, because. What if, in the end;that person isn't there for youwhen you need them the most. What were they all along ?Someone that just wanted to take a ride and see what it felt like.Well, at that point;there wish would've came true, because. Some people just don't know the difference between someone that really cares, and someone that you don't know, but cares moreabout you, than anyone knows.


I'm not who i was a couple of years ago, i've changed.Along with the rest .. new attitude, new clicks, everything.But that's who we are, i didn't change to meet someone'sexpectations, because that right there. Isn't who i am, and never will be.That's one thing i promise my self everyday .. I don't want to live a lie, I don't want to be somebody I'm not just to fit in.If that's the case, that's just telling me i wasn't good enough before.


&& I'm not about to give up .. i've come this far;and I'm not backing down now.All that i've done, has been a risk;a risk for my life, and for humiliation, I'm not gonna leave ..And no ones going to make me, 'cause this is my dream;and for once. It's finally coming true .. and I'm succeeding.No time left to back down and make second thoughts, just go for it.


Have you ever felt as if someone you loved, loved you too;but you just didn't know.And you were to scared to ask that person because you thought they'd say no.Why not take a risk? Things could be worse, And by doing this, your just hurting no one but your self ..Step up, make a stand, tell him how you feel .. tell him, you love him.Because that's what life is about, living.Not hiding, being who you are, because you don't care what othersthink of you ..that's what this is all about.


&& I never thought i'd say this, but. i think it's time we move on ..we've been through a lot already, and i don't want to get hurt in the end.We've had our laughs, and now it's time to say goodbye .. because.I know for a fact, this isn't going to last.


And who said that I'm the one giving up, but all along, i've reallybeen the only one trying to make this work.not you, but who am i to blame ? Even if i tried .. who knows if i did something wrong ? We need two to play this game, and i don't plan on playing alone.


It's like a board game, you've gotta play with someone, but someone that doesn't cheat.Because, in the end when you find out, the games over.And that board game isn't ever played again, at least not by the same people.


And, it's not that i miss you, it's just i miss the times we've had.It seems as if we both gave up so fast, and it only felt likewe've been together for 2 minutes.No longer, and nothing's happened yet ..But , i only wish.


Can you love me like i love you ..Can you care about me like i care about you ..But better yet .. can you appreciate the fact of me still being here.After all we've gone through, you think we'd be done ..But; we're still together, and were best friends forever.


Hah, yeah. We might be a little crazy sometimes, but who cares.We scream random noises, run through strawberry patches in our heads.Tell each other the dumbest secrets, do something we thought we'd never be able to pull off, laugh until we cry because that's who we are.


And i'll listen to that song over and over again, because every time it seems to get to me.Like when you whisper in my ear, It's like our song is playing.And all i think about is you .. and act like no one else is around,But you don't know feeling, and you never will.


So, highschool is highschool, nothing's wrong with it.Except for backstabbing friends and the rumors from hell.But who cares, you know the truth, and you know who yourreal friends are .. yeah, sure. It's hard to leave the otherones behind, but you have to do what you gotta do.nothing's holding you back, only yourself.And you've gotta do what's right, not wrong.'Cause in the end, you'll be the one getting hurt.Not anyone else, because they caused this to happen.


&& I don't plan on giving up now , it's just that. Now that we've gotten so far, i don't want to turn back yet after everything we'vebeen through. I don't want to be the one to blame for all of this.Because, overall. I'm the only one that tried .. and the only one thatcared about anything or anyone.


It was the last day, the last day that we will ever spend together.And knowing that we'll be gone forever, and not even a phone call can bring us back together makes this worse, I can't believei'm actually saying this, but it's for the best .. for the ones i care about,for the friends that have always been there for me no matter what,for the ones that have come back for me in the end,For the ones that have made me understand what life was really about.To the ones that helped me find love, and made me who i am today.It's not that i want to leave .. but it's because i have to.You never knew what you had until it left, and me .. i'm not stickingaround anymore. Somethings have to be done .. I'm not going to sayGoodbye because who knows, maybe one day. We'll be together again.