yo* mi'gash. i missed you blog! it's been ages since i stoped blogging. well, here i am, i need to blog, coz whenever i rant,yell or express my feelings here, it's just like having somone to listen to you, just LISTEN, even if im wrong, he/she will never say that i am, tho i knew it, you know, just listen to me. so, haaaa! this blog is very important to me :) anyways, im really happy. as in very happy. you know why? it's becuz my school life is going smoothly and happy...& CRAZY! well, hella yeah, my buds are sooo eek, hard to explain, it's like, we always act retarded in public but instead of having people irritated to us, they find us funny,silly and cute. siriously, like, when i used to drink from shy's soda, then i accidentaly dropped it and she's like "wtf!! i haven't even drank from that!! buy me another one or i'll kill you!!!" yeah, she's yelling at me and i just laughing cuz shy's like really really pissed at me why? 'cuz she spent a lifetie ust to by that soda. 8DDDD hahaha. i mean, it' like 13 mins. before the canteener took her orders. haaXD and hen, people around us are like sneekering and laughing secretly, some even stopped and watched th whole scene!! hahaha. -ofcourse,i bought shy a new one. and that's how it all ended. haha :)) and then,i have this crush on someone.. *blushes* his name is Carlo Paras, aka Michael jackson or MJ. hahahaha :]]]] never mind his alias, i mean, i really crush him!! superb! he's effin handsum and, yeah i know i always say that whenevr i have a new crush but not this time, it different! way different from the other ones, (except for MK CABRAL, OF RIAZL5!!♥) haha, and oh! my frends and i often go to this karaoke hub, where you can freely vandalized and we vandalized thurr and guess what we wrote?? "Dear jhenecys, i love you, always and forever. -SSCGUY" hahahaha. yeeaa!! were writing to ourselves pretending were some handsome guy from some uppr section! wahahaha, i know, so stupiid! but i enjoy it!! gaaah! i really love life!!! :) that's all for now. BEAT IT!8DDDD
the rain won't stop. it's starting to kill me. i just wish, i can talk to him for the last time and ask what's wrong. i mean, since me and that guy got into a fight, he never talked to me. i mean, i don't what i did wrong, it's just, im not really used whenever he's not around. im tarting to be miserable and addicted to him even tho i haven't talked to him since last friday. i don't know. maybe i just need to express my feelings. it's kinda confusing actually. i raly do love him, but im trying my best for him to not know this, but, it's just getting harder and harder to me. it's complicated. i just love him and i think evn tho saying that i already moved on, i just can't really seem to run away from the truth.why is he doing this to me? doesn't he know that it's hurting me? shit. i really do love him. i dont know what else to do. i feel like no one can help me. i feel like im all alone. my heart is aching. im holding back my tears. i don't want to cry. i do't want to be that old weak girl again who cried over some stupid boy. no, i can't be that again. i really hate this!! damn. if he only knew that it's ripping my heart to peices. i ca't run from the truth that i already loved him and moving o is'nt that easy since, i've expected too much. crap! i feel like im all alne in this world facing this situations. pls stop hurting me. im not a toy, im a girl who always got his heart broken. i just don't like it whenever im feeling these kind of pain. im not ued to thse kind of pain. that is why i hate falling in love. because, in the end, there's only two pisibility, if you will get the happy ending you wanted o you will either cry yourself to sleep again. why am such a looser? ever since i've fallen inlove i never get thehappy ending i wanted. it's always the same ending. i...i don't what to do. i just can't stand these anymore. i love him, but i guess, he doesn't love me back. cuz if he do, he'll probably won't sign out whenever im online. dang. it hurts, everytime he signs out, feels like, im such a pathetic girl. feels like im not even a human. why is he so cold?? is it that hard to fall inlove with a girl like me?? my tear is falling again down into my cheeks. it's been so long sine i felt this pains. this... REJECTION...
Hello myLoves:)) im really really super duperrr happy!. well, we had this cute college boy from U.A who observed us in ou MAPEH lately and yesterday. he's reall cute. gawd. love the way he smiles. jeeezz. dang it!! i hope he will be on monday observing us again:( as of what i've heard, all U.A college students on our campus will be observing us on one specific subject for four months and four weeks. but, that's when some random ladies went in our room in our filipino class. not sure tho if that includes that cute guy who observed us yesterday and today. but i hope he does!! i hope he's still there this coming monday. he never fails to complete my day. i really like him. wanna know what his name is? it's MICHAEL. geez. i love him.♥ he's really nice. plus, i already touched his hand, actually, he touched mine. not on purpose but accidentally. it's actually like this: he's asking where the board eraser is, i know where it is and i opened the drawer, i actually plan to get it and erase the blackboard, but it turns out that he's planning the same lan. so while im putting up the eraser, he accidentally touched my hand!!! oh my god!! it's something i won't forget. i love the feeling. :))))))) he's so cute!! the way he smile is effinn AMAZING!! one word for him -> FIT!!! nyways, i won't try to be a stuck up girl saying only one topic in her daily rants. well. Hmmm. i just watched a video on youtube, guess wht?? it's an emo boy kissing with each other! HELL!! wtf. i know. it's accidentaly... ACTUALLY. =) then, omg. it's soo hot. neverthless, kinda disgusting. cuz, cmmon!! two guys kissing?? what a retard. and im also a retard for watching it. im sarry. ok. i wont do it.. i promise!! and then, what else? oyeah, i need to do this proof stuff so Hmm. here it is -> ym is:Wintersn0w_xvii while my friendster is:nexzh_hearts5@y.c and my twitter is:Dissilusione my friendstertalk account is:X.xPandANimoriEx.X and hmm. that's all. i dont have a facebook, tho i created one but i already trashed it. i also don't have any youtube account. well, i have one but that's just so i can watch r-rated clips. hahahaha. well, uhm. what else? ok, that's all for today. :))
*BOOYAH! you know what? nah, you dont know a thing! :)))) gaaaah! it's the most cryazy-est disastrous day i had ever had! phew! well it's already the start of september and im kinda, "oh my gosh. christmass is comming!!" 8DDD. well, yeah, i had this ticket for a stage play calld "miss saigon" and after a month of waiting, i've already watched it, and gah, nothing special. i really hate it. i mean, i wouldn't if i understand i thing! well, the convention center is soo crowded and noisy so how in the world am i going to hear the characters!? D-U-H!? anyways, crap! i need to do some searching stuffs abt that play, i wouldn't have if a understsand the play but, yeaaa. how would i suppose to answer the questions my english teacher gave us if i don't even know a ting! A TOTAL CLUELESS GIRL!! then, their voices are low and weak (except for miss.saigon, gosh it's like she wants to eat me or something :)) ) and if not for that cute, charismatic leading guy, i would have just slept. he's effin cute!! a little chubby but his body will be ignored when you saw his face! :)) akkkkk! ok, Mhmmm. it's been so long since i updated my blog right? i mean, it's been DECADES!! haha.lolrfl. i missed blogging and, yeah, i have something, i mean, ALOT to say. about something and someone. well, it's not that im flamming here but, hey!? what's happening to you? is that even you??! cmmon like wtf. n_______n you're too young to know that much and you probably don't know how life goes, specially living a life like that? geeez. have some mercy for yourself! :) well, ugh. i dont know. i won't say a thing about YOU anymore. i just dont feel like your the person i knew last year. frankly and in all honesty, who are you!? ugh. anyhow, i don't want to discuss this nonsensethings anymore. these past few weeks, i have expirienced something good and that expiriened thought me something that i have never known for soo long. tho i always say that i knew it. living your life to the fullest is not having a golden ring/necklace nor having a bunch of cute and hot guys running over you, not even being the richest man/woman in the world will give the best description for the "living your life to the fullest" phrase. You wanna know what living life to the fullest actually is? It's waking up on a Monday morning with no complaints. It's knowing you always deserve to laugh. It's doing what feels right no matter what. It's doing what you want to, no matter how stupid you look. It's about being yourself, cause no one can tell you you're doing it wrong. shortly, it's about finding the positive in every negative situations;) woh!? that's deep man!! =)) ok. imma update this tomorrow or maybe the day after tomarrow. buh-bye for now blog:S