the rain won't stop. it's starting to kill me. i just wish, i can talk to him for the last time and ask what's wrong. i mean, since me and that guy got into a fight, he never talked to me. i mean, i don't what i did wrong, it's just, im not really used whenever he's not around. im tarting to be miserable and addicted to him even tho i haven't talked to him since last friday. i don't know. maybe i just need to express my feelings. it's kinda confusing actually. i raly do love him, but im trying my best for him to not know this, but, it's just getting harder and harder to me. it's complicated. i just love him and i think evn tho saying that i already moved on, i just can't really seem to run away from the truth.why is he doing this to me? doesn't he know that it's hurting me? shit. i really do love him. i dont know what else to do. i feel like no one can help me. i feel like im all alone. my heart is aching. im holding back my tears. i don't want to cry. i do't want to be that old weak girl again who cried over some stupid boy. no, i can't be that again. i really hate this!! damn. if he only knew that it's ripping my heart to peices. i ca't run from the truth that i already loved him and moving o is'nt that easy since, i've expected too much. crap! i feel like im all alne in this world facing this situations. pls stop hurting me. im not a toy, im a girl who always got his heart broken. i just don't like it whenever im feeling these kind of pain. im not ued to thse kind of pain. that is why i hate falling in love. because, in the end, there's only two pisibility, if you will get the happy ending you wanted o you will either cry yourself to sleep again. why am such a looser? ever since i've fallen inlove i never get thehappy ending i wanted. it's always the same ending. i...i don't what to do. i just can't stand these anymore. i love him, but i guess, he doesn't love me back. cuz if he do, he'll probably won't sign out whenever im online. dang. it hurts, everytime he signs out, feels like, im such a pathetic girl. feels like im not even a human. why is he so cold?? is it that hard to fall inlove with a girl like me?? my tear is falling again down into my cheeks. it's been so long sine i felt this pains. this... REJECTION...