Ecstatic.Who?

Beat it! 8DD

2009-09-25T00:23:00.000-07:00

yo* mi'gash. i missed you blog! it's been ages since i stoped blogging. well, here i am, i need to blog, coz whenever i rant,yell or express my feelings here, it's just like having somone to listen to you, just LISTEN, even if im wrong, he/she will never say that i am, tho i knew it, you know, just listen to me. so, haaaa! this blog is very important to me :) anyways, im really happy. as in very happy. you know why? it's becuz my school life is going smoothly and happy...& CRAZY! well, hella yeah, my buds are sooo eek, hard to explain, it's like, we always act retarded in public but instead of having people irritated to us, they find us funny,silly and cute. siriously, like, when i used to drink from shy's soda, then i accidentaly dropped it and she's like "wtf!! i haven't even drank from that!! buy me another one or i'll kill you!!!" yeah, she's yelling at me and i just laughing cuz shy's like really really pissed at me why? 'cuz she spent a lifetie ust to by that soda. 8DDDD hahaha. i mean, it' like 13 mins. before the canteener took her orders. haaXD and hen, people around us are like sneekering and laughing secretly, some even stopped and watched th whole scene!! hahaha. -ofcourse,i bought shy a new one. and that's how it all ended. haha :)) and then,i have this crush on someone.. *blushes* his name is Carlo Paras, aka Michael jackson or MJ. hahahaha :]]]] never mind his alias, i mean, i really crush him!! superb! he's effin handsum and, yeah i know i always say that whenevr i have a new crush but not this time, it different! way different from the other ones, (except for MK CABRAL, OF RIAZL5!!♥) haha, and oh! my frends and i often go to this karaoke hub, where you can freely vandalized and we vandalized thurr and guess what we wrote?? "Dear jhenecys, i love you, always and forever. -SSCGUY" hahahaha. yeeaa!! were writing to ourselves pretending were some handsome guy from some uppr section! wahahaha, i know, so stupiid! but i enjoy it!! gaaah! i really love life!!! :) that's all for now. BEAT IT!8DDDD

towering over your head..

2009-09-07T01:27:00.000-07:00

the rain won't stop. it's starting to kill me. i just wish, i can talk to him for the last time and ask what's wrong. i mean, since me and that guy got into a fight, he never talked to me. i mean, i don't what i did wrong, it's just, im not really used whenever he's not around. im tarting to be miserable and addicted to him even tho i haven't talked to him since last friday. i don't know. maybe i just need to express my feelings. it's kinda confusing actually. i raly do love him, but im trying my best for him to not know this, but, it's just getting harder and harder to me. it's complicated. i just love him and i think evn tho saying that i already moved on, i just can't really seem to run away from the truth.why is he doing this to me? doesn't he know that it's hurting me? shit. i really do love him. i dont know what else to do. i feel like no one can help me. i feel like im all alone. my heart is aching. im holding back my tears. i don't want to cry. i do't want to be that old weak girl again who cried over some stupid boy. no, i can't be that again. i really hate this!! damn. if he only knew that it's ripping my heart to peices. i ca't run from the truth that i already loved him and moving o is'nt that easy since, i've expected too much. crap! i feel like im all alne in this world facing this situations. pls stop hurting me. im not a toy, im a girl who always got his heart broken. i just don't like it whenever im feeling these kind of pain. im not ued to thse kind of pain. that is why i hate falling in love. because, in the end, there's only two pisibility, if you will get the happy ending you wanted o you will either cry yourself to sleep again. why am such a looser? ever since i've fallen inlove i never get thehappy ending i wanted. it's always the same ending. i...i don't what to do. i just can't stand these anymore. i love him, but i guess, he doesn't love me back. cuz if he do, he'll probably won't sign out whenever im online. dang. it hurts, everytime he signs out, feels like, im such a pathetic girl. feels like im not even a human. why is he so cold?? is it that hard to fall inlove with a girl like me?? my tear is falling again down into my cheeks. it's been so long sine i felt this pains. this... REJECTION...

cracking up my knuckles:))

2009-09-04T01:45:00.000-07:00

Hello myLoves:)) im really really super duperrr happy!. well, we had this cute college boy from U.A who observed us in ou MAPEH lately and yesterday. he's reall cute. gawd. love the way he smiles. jeeezz. dang it!! i hope he will be on monday observing us again:( as of what i've heard, all U.A college students on our campus will be observing us on one specific subject for four months and four weeks. but, that's when some random ladies went in our room in our filipino class. not sure tho if that includes that cute guy who observed us yesterday and today. but i hope he does!! i hope he's still there this coming monday. he never fails to complete my day. i really like him. wanna know what his name is? it's MICHAEL. geez. i love him.♥ he's really nice. plus, i already touched his hand, actually, he touched mine. not on purpose but accidentally. it's actually like this: he's asking where the board eraser is, i know where it is and i opened the drawer, i actually plan to get it and erase the blackboard, but it turns out that he's planning the same lan. so while im putting up the eraser, he accidentally touched my hand!!! oh my god!! it's something i won't forget. i love the feeling. :))))))) he's so cute!! the way he smile is effinn AMAZING!! one word for him -> FIT!!! nyways, i won't try to be a stuck up girl saying only one topic in her daily rants. well. Hmmm. i just watched a video on youtube, guess wht?? it's an emo boy kissing with each other! HELL!! wtf. i know. it's accidentaly... ACTUALLY. =) then, omg. it's soo hot. neverthless, kinda disgusting. cuz, cmmon!! two guys kissing?? what a retard. and im also a retard for watching it. im sarry. ok. i wont do it.. i promise!! and then, what else? oyeah, i need to do this proof stuff so Hmm. here it is -> ym is:Wintersn0w_xvii while my friendster is:nexzh_hearts5@y.c and my twitter is:Dissilusione my friendstertalk account is:X.xPandANimoriEx.X and hmm. that's all. i dont have a facebook, tho i created one but i already trashed it. i also don't have any youtube account. well, i have one but that's just so i can watch r-rated clips. hahahaha. well, uhm. what else? ok, that's all for today. :))

pride gone away

2009-09-01T00:19:00.000-07:00

*BOOYAH! you know what? nah, you dont know a thing! :)))) gaaaah! it's the most cryazy-est disastrous day i had ever had! phew! well it's already the start of september and im kinda, "oh my gosh. christmass is comming!!" 8DDD. well, yeah, i had this ticket for a stage play calld "miss saigon" and after a month of waiting, i've already watched it, and gah, nothing special. i really hate it. i mean, i wouldn't if i understand i thing! well, the convention center is soo crowded and noisy so how in the world am i going to hear the characters!? D-U-H!? anyways, crap! i need to do some searching stuffs abt that play, i wouldn't have if a understsand the play but, yeaaa. how would i suppose to answer the questions my english teacher gave us if i don't even know a ting! A TOTAL CLUELESS GIRL!! then, their voices are low and weak (except for miss.saigon, gosh it's like she wants to eat me or something :)) ) and if not for that cute, charismatic leading guy, i would have just slept. he's effin cute!! a little chubby but his body will be ignored when you saw his face! :)) akkkkk! ok, Mhmmm. it's been so long since i updated my blog right? i mean, it's been DECADES!! haha.lolrfl. i missed blogging and, yeah, i have something, i mean, ALOT to say. about something and someone. well, it's not that im flamming here but, hey!? what's happening to you? is that even you??! cmmon like wtf. n_______n you're too young to know that much and you probably don't know how life goes, specially living a life like that? geeez. have some mercy for yourself! :) well, ugh. i dont know. i won't say a thing about YOU anymore. i just dont feel like your the person i knew last year. frankly and in all honesty, who are you!? ugh. anyhow, i don't want to discuss this nonsensethings anymore. these past few weeks, i have expirienced something good and that expiriened thought me something that i have never known for soo long. tho i always say that i knew it. living your life to the fullest is not having a golden ring/necklace nor having a bunch of cute and hot guys running over you, not even being the richest man/woman in the world will give the best description for the "living your life to the fullest" phrase. You wanna know what living life to the fullest actually is? It's waking up on a Monday morning with no complaints. It's knowing you always deserve to laugh. It's doing what feels right no matter what. It's doing what you want to, no matter how stupid you look. It's about being yourself, cause no one can tell you you're doing it wrong. shortly, it's about finding the positive in every negative situations;) woh!? that's deep man!! =)) ok. imma update this tomorrow or maybe the day after tomarrow. buh-bye for now blog:S

avoiding the purple zebras.

2009-08-22T03:49:00.000-07:00

im sooo excited for tomorrow! really! my mom and i are going to have a shopping spree. 1thou for me and 1 thou for her. who wouldn't be excited?? and, im actually listing the things im planning to buy like 2 skinny jeans, 1 akomismo necklace , blouses/t-shirts , sandals etcetc. i need to gain some strength 'cuz it's going to be a looong day for me tomorrow. and then, i saw my old pirated dvd of boys over flower, and since i have nuthing to do for the whole day, [but to surf the net of course] i decided to have some popcorn, make some iced tea, sit back and watch the movie, after watching it [take note: i didn;t finished the whole movie cuz it's so damn loong it's take 1 whol day for me to finsih it], i couldn't stop envying jan di until now! i mean, oh my frikkin gosh, jun pyo is soo loyal and sweet and tough and etcetcetc!! she's so luky, i mean, i hope im her! ugh. even th i know that it's only a movie and a man like gu jun pyo is very hard to find. *sighs* i really, as in want to grow old with someone like gu jun pyo, siriously!!!!!!! okay,okay, jhen, calm down, breathe, relax, take a break, take a kitkat [wtf?] hahahaha. i honestly don't know what to blog. since im very dry these past few days:( and, oh, newsplash, i just accepted 43 comments on my friendster), speaking of friendster, i have seen many peepz posting bulletins like "friendster is getting boring" or "fs is a crap, fb is better;)" and so on and so forth, my point is, if friendster really is gtting boring, why do you still use it? i am not flamming here nor am i reffering to a certain someone, it's just even if friendster is getting boring don't you think that a little bit consideration to the admin of fs will be better? since you also used fs for so long, does it hurt to think that posting these bulletins esp the ones comparing fs to fb will somewhere lead to a big debate to some other people?like for example, some stupid idiots fighting over just to see what's better over these 2 sites? or worse, a competetion for this two amazing sites? well it's not bad having a bit of competition but,.. ugh! how can you go out saying all you want is world peace when you can't even start putting it in action in a small things? plus, i or we, dnt care if you're starting to hate fs, it'l be greatfull for us if you just shut yer mouth and keep it to yourself, bulletins promoting yer fb acc is ok but saying something bad abt fs when you used to use it? puh-lease. anyhows, i wont waste my time for this shittos 'cuz this ain't really my thing. as for me, i just hope that whoever read this blogpost will get my point. aryt? and so, btw. i have reread my "saving my first kiss" book by lisa velthouse. yep, -again. and my fave chappie there is "avoiding the purple zebra" whcih contains stories about those teenager who haven;twaited for the rught time to hae sex. it's really a nice book. imma try to take a picture of it so you can see how it looks like ok? or maybe you can just search it;) that will be easier;) dooh!' im totally dry, imma try to post another blog for tomm ok? as for now, i hafta go. BB BLOG:)

tale as old as time..

2009-08-20T01:22:00.000-07:00

*sighs* i miss him. geez. i dont know what to do. i mean, it's been 3 days and i still haven't seen his calm and gentle face. how can i stand 2 more quarters this schoolyear? in our first grading, we study agriculture in mahoganny building which is close to the orchids bulding, but now, we are in sunflower bldng which is way,way far from orchids. if ever my crush is late in their science, how can i look at him? after our science we have to go staright to the sunflower building, ugh! if you dont get what i mean, then, never mind:/ tsk. i dont like it. no, this ain't cool. i want to see him!! i can afford going to school without seeing neutron, but without seeing that 4thyear guy?? NO WAY. man! what will i do? i badly want to see him again. i can't go on and on like this. ugh. why is this like this?? my relationship with my bestfriends are going smoothly (except for the fact that me&innah have't talked yet, gosh, i wonder what happened to that girl. i miss you parz!) and my sip-sipping action with my math tteacher is going smoothly too, but why is it when things that you worried about are ok now, then suddenly, the one you loved had been missing. i bet you didnt get my point. ugh. i dont care, i just, i just want to express and scream my feelings. this is ridiculous, i dont know. ugh! np:in the way by ne-yo
call me over reacting or drama queen but i dont care! uggghhh!! pfffttt!! ok, change topic. *sighs*
this morning, i've attended our youth's thursday devotion. im kinda happy ive attended it for i have met new friends and i have met this funny guy, really funny. he always crack jokes and never fails to make me smile and laugh out loud. oh gosh, i love that guy. hahaha:)) and then, i saw jhed, and we talked and talked, then there's jedrich, ugh, that guy is so makapal but really funny and i love the way i make bara-bara him and he'll just say that im hurting his feelings, but it;s just a joke. hahaha:) and then there's josephine, she really funny to be with. hahaha, even tho i woke up arly this morning, i didn;t regretted it tho. im happy, atleast meeting new friends and reuniting with some old ones made me smile and laugh out loud. i thank God that i have them. oh, and im really touched whenever i hear the song white horse by taylor swift. gosh, makes me remininsce the moments i have had with my crushes. lol. im such a retard. but that's what makes me beautifull;) and, sheessh. yesterday, i quickly opened my friendster account then when i looked at it, i had no friend, yes! no nothing!! i was really creeped out and pissed for i thought that someone hacked my fs account, but when i opened it just now, my 617 friends appeared. weird, but atleast i have had a sigh of relief. whew! hahaha:) i had a shock there for a moment. siriously, hahahaha. anyways, that's all for today. hope i'll see him on monday. oh i wish!♥

"NO PDA ALLOWED"

2009-08-18T04:02:00.000-07:00

whut tha heck. hahaha:DD i love this day! wanna know why? well it's simple as this, my science teacher asked me again to put her bag in her room at orchids 6, gladly, i just saw my crush, who is rooming on orchids 5, so i gladly did what my teacher asked me to do so. and then, after i've put the bag on the cabinet, we tried to close the door but it's just so dang hard! i tried and tried, and then my cursh's classmate asked us (me&danica) if we need a help then i turned around and i saw my crush standing at my back and i blushed and then my adrenalaine rushed which made me closed the door with all my strenght, but they havven't noticed yet that i already closed the door so they asked us again if we need any help, i hapily (and patethicly) turned around and say "tapus na:D" so they just smiled and i smiled back. and we already walked away. that's ok with me. i mean, im kinda satisfied with just a glimpse of my crush's face. sadly, i haven't saw my 4thyear crush, hmm. idk, maybe he's absent? ugh, i already miss him:( anyways, im inlove with this day, because, my 2 bestfriends are very hyper and active, my nak'nak almaidah is also ok, and seeing them happy and jolly already made me happy too. anyway, what does the title have to do with this blog?,you might ask. lately this afternoon, me and my guy friend walk together and we're very close at each other, not forgetting the fact that arm is locked on his arm. you know what i mean? haha:) if you dont, then never mind. haha, then, i certain teacher caught us and said "anak, amba-bata nyo pa, mag nobya ba kayo?" and we laughed really loud and we said "naku mam, hindi po, close lang talaga" and the teahcer said "tsk.no personal display of afection allowed. diba rules yan dito? naku, wag kayo dito magharutan mga anak. osige, tandaan nyo yun aa?" and then my guy friend said (take note, the techer already left) "sabi na ngang close lang tapos pagsisiksikan pang pda ginagawa natin. anu daw? magharutan? nang balu nang teacher na'yta! nang kabolangan" i laughed and said "e ba;t apektado kb? hnd naman totoo.sus" and we laughed, and siriously, that kind of thoguth amuses me, like, wtf, better to ask first than say things that aren't true or you might put yerself in shame. hahaha:DD that's all for today tho, ily blog♥

a glimpse of heaven..

2009-08-17T03:32:00.000-07:00

i leave it all to God. what? yes, i leave my grades to God. ugh. im kinda scared about my grades in Math,TLE,Science&Aralin. wtf. the highest grade they can give is 83 up, is that even considered a high score? man, i dont know. whatever happens, to God be the glory. anyways, it's been a very busy day and im really glad that ive bought what i've wanted to buy these past few days. you see, im earning for a new cologne and a hat.and finally, all my hardwork paid off. lately this afternoon, after school, me,dansel&almaidah saw this kinda hidden&new botique located near video city at palengke. out of ciriousity, we entered it and gosh! so many goeorgous dresses lay sections to section, it's not that big tho but the botique is modern and chique. they sell diffeent kinds of bags,dressses,jeans,perfumes,shoes, etcetc. i saw this cute bottle of perfume, at first, i didn't planned to buy it, i just wan to smell it and take a good look at it, then after ive sprayed some at my wrist, omg. i love the smell! the smell is sweet and nice. really, oh i wish you were here to smell it. plus, it only cost me 129 pesos so watdafart? i hafta buy it, and so i did. im really excited to spray it all on me tommorow. ha-ha:D and then, i also bought this cute but rockin hat ive been drooling on these past few days. i mean, the first time i saw it, i just, man! i just have to have that hat! and then, here it is. im wearing it at the moment actually. hahaha:)) also excited to strut it this coming wednesday. oyea;) haha. actually, this prooved me something. the saying that, what you sow, is what you reap. indeed true;) anyways. i saw my crush. he's effin handsome!! i swaer, every angle in his face, ohhhh.. PERFECT. his eyes, so deep and calm, his face, so gentle and angelic, his smile, *sighs* so heart melting and perfect, in short, when you take a look at him, it's like you just had a glimpse of heaven. he is really breathe taking. a perfect example of the adjectives calm,gentle,perfect,sweet,silent *sighs*. but, i dotn think that there's a chance for me to be noticed by him. like, wtf. he's soo handsome and im so.. arrogant,child-ish,silly,crazy, to make the explanation shorter, he's out of my league. [ is he? oh, i hope not:( ] "but" lately at our agriculuture, (we are in our room already but i can still see him outside our science room) ipeeked over my classmate's shoulder to look at him and guess what?? at first, im looking at him and his facing his classmate so all i can see is his back. but then, he suddenly uhm, arrange? or what do you call it? hmmm, fixed his hair then slowly, he faced toward our room and he's like, finding someone in it. i mean it!!! omg. idk, this crazy feeling, ugh, should i keep them? ugh. that's all for today blog. gonna keep updated this week. yeah;_ ttyl.

nothing special.

2009-08-15T03:15:00.000-07:00

"baby i can't forget you."
omg. i miss him. no, not neutron nor that ssc guy, siriously, i missed the guy i used to love and care about. the one who's living miles and miles away from me. yes, it's the guy i have ever loved since my childhood. it's him. i can't stop thinking about him. is he alright? is he happy now? gosh. im longing for that cute smile of him. i love him dearly, but i can't seem to face the fact that, maybe, he already forgotten everything about me. maybe, he doesn't love me anymore. it's really hard y'know? i mean, pretending youre ok and your contented about that cute guy, just to erase the sad truth that i am, patethic. no, not really patethic. i am patethic when it comes in love. yeaa right i have tons of crushes but that's just nothing. there's already someone in my heart. locked up. ugh.tugsh.kapow!! maybe it's time to move on or forget him, but, how? everytime i see stars at night i remember him. oh dear. *sighs*. 'nuff said, im not going to let one guy spoil my happiness. ok, im fine, im cool im FINE. oh, i dont know what to blog. my brain is totally empty. and.. it's silent in here. all i can here is the keyboard whenever im typing and my noisy mouth whenever im chewing [im eating my dinner atm]. ugh. empty. what will i blog? ugh.pfft. taht's all for today. nothing special. :'> kbye

laughed 'till my stomach ached:DD

2009-08-14T02:42:00.000-07:00

goodafternoon blog!:)
phew!it's been a really AWESOME day! i really DO cherish my new school. thank you Lord!:)
this is the last day of our periodical examinations, and gosh! we took our tests in MAPEH,TLE,FILIPIO&SCIENCE. we already checked our test in TLE and guess what?? i got 41/50 and yes, im still the highest! can you imagine that? Thank you again Lord! hahahaha. im really happy and confident about my tests. it's a good start. oh yes. and then, we went to our house (me,al-maidah,dancel,danica,rachel,rosalejos) becuz were going to ask for my mom's permission to go to the mall, and gladly, she approved;) so we went to the mall, first we ate at greenwhich, we ordered family size pizza. flavor is hawwaian delight. and so we dig in and ate it. LOL, almaidah is so funny and silly. she poured ALOT [and i mean ALOT!] of hotsauce into her pizza which makes the pizza ooze and the sauce to fall down the table. her fingers are also splattered with hot sauce and it's like she stabbed someone with a knife. hahahaha!! and then,the waiter saw her and laughed and we said "kuya, masarap daw kasi masyado" then he laughed and took a tissue and gave it to us while saying "baka kailangan nya to." hahahaha. and she laughed. dang, that's a wild one in eating pizza. wilder than cj! i swear! and so our next stop is karaoke hub. we sang many songs and spent 2 hours in singin like crazy!! the last song we sang is careless whisper and we danced like crazy!!! as in! were like drunken retards. thou should have seen it! tsk. then or time ran out and so we are leaving the place when we saw that cute ssc guy me and dancel had been drooling on over these past few days and we're looking and staring at him and then KABOOM! he caught us staring at him so we changed our eyes direction and laughed secretly. then while walking sloooowly i peeked over dancel's shoulder to look at him for the last time, THAT'S THE TIME I CAUGHT HIM STARING AT ME! me! siriously, no joke! and i blushed and he saw me staring at him and we looked at each other for 2 mins [i think?] and then i glanced back to the way im walking at and then i accidentaly bumped into this silly child, then i looked over to him again to see if he saw that and he did! he smiled secretly and i blushed, okay, embarrassing!!! cool huh? : anyways, we went to tom's world and played tons of games and then we saw jeremy,marj,&mary rose we tried to hide but they already saw us so all we can do us to say "hi to them". then there they are, following and snooping everwhere we go, we sang in the karaoke but they just keep on stealing our song so we tried to outsmart them by hiding to them we went to toy kingdom to find and look at some toys [fake act only, so we could hide to them] then i said "ay ang ganda! way, paki tignan kung magkano" then she do it so but while looking at the price tag, we ran and hide at some sections until we lost sight of her and we ran outside toy kingdom and were like crazy! hahaha. people are staring at us but, THEHELL I CARE? and then we went to world of fun to have some karaoke singing again :)) and we sang listene by beyonce and it's so damn high and our voice our like off key!! but were still singing and laughing. if we ever got our voice go pyok/piyok, we just keep on laughing it off. so then the last part of the song were like this: "oh oh hoo hoo oh hoo" nd then i played with it and i used my spooky voice and i forgot the fact that im using a microphone and then people stared and laughed at us, no, make that a "me"!! gosh! then we ran and we went to the elevator and then there's many senior and junior boys inside and were like blushing in the inside [watdaef?lols] and then we go to our own seperated ways, it's really a very happy day:) many things happened but i dont wan to type it all in here since i might not finish my blogging. hahaha:) so far, im enjoying life. that's all for today:) 'nuff said:DD

she's into the highest;)

2009-08-13T00:20:00.000-07:00

Hello Blog:DD
im pretty happy for today. atleast i know that this is true, not just another lie to hide the truth that im blinding myself bcuz im not happy, so i pretend that im reall happy even tho im not. but, as i said, IM HAPPY!:D hahaha. enough with that word, let's cut the nutsy introduction of this post. well, for today, im really full of enthusiasm about our periodical examinations, tho i have goosebumps whenever i think about our math pt. but surprisingly, im pretty confident about my scores. idk, but, yes, im pretty confident about it, and yeah, instead of getting scared about my grades this 1st grading, whew! for the first time, im kinda excited about it. woah!! epic fails! hahahaha:) i really thank God for giving me wisdom and knowledge, not just for today but everyday. i mean, not only that should i thank him for but if i put or type them all in here, i'll just go on and on.and im also happy about my descision that i transfered to another school. i mean, not that happy coz im still missing my betsfriends, especial mention to innah teodoro,i luv bakla! :pp. anyways, atleast i am pretty active at school and mo confident boost to it's highest level, well, not really but i know it did boost. haha:)) and im also happy about the fact that mama and papa are okay now. well, if i haven't blogged it yet, yes, and shh, my mom and dad did had a fight these days, but finally, after through alot of prayers for them, they're okay now. hurray! really, God is so good!:) and oh, well, if you think that everything about my school life is going smooth and perfect, well, it's not. well kinda but not really. ok? i mean, tolerating the fact/truth that im STILL [yes, i admitt] looking for the right one. right bestfriend, not right guy ok? hahahaha:D anyhow, yes. im still confuse, i mean, i have this weird feelings. kinda scared and uncomfortable. idk why the hell im feeling this. it's driving me nuts!i swear! well, i think shylyn is kinda uncomfortable with us [me&danica] these past few days. and then way&nikka keeps on bugging her and stealing her away from us. not realy but exactly close to what i want to say;) then danica keeps on, uhmm.. staring and being silent, idk. i think something's bugging her? God help me. who is really my friend here in school? i dont want to be alone, i wont give up, i'll pray and pray fpr the right friend until she come. call it perserverance baby!:D anyway, im really really duper super as in siriously really really excited about my grades. im pretty scared about my math but i leave it all to God. examinations are still on going for tomorrow. speaking which, lately, we had our periodical examination in values and we checked it already, guess what? i got 50/50! i know right? pretty imposible to believe but what can i say? i did my best so that's just a normal product of my striving. well not reall my bestest best. hahaha.ok i hafta review for tomorrow pa. so, till here blog;)

OH STAR! [just some updates]

2009-08-09T03:05:00.000-07:00

tiring indeed. *sighs* waking up early in the morning, getting ready and going to the church. very tiring but i had fun today cuz ive spent the whole time with my bff's. glad to see tehm again. ive missed them like a hundred bunch! anyway, periodical test are coming, which reminds me, less on computer more on books. sheesh. hahaha:) and i almost forgot the miss saigon thing. i'll be watching that play this coming september, then our section are scheduled for dental and medical this thursday. but removed to be in next thursday due to our examinations. then, our aquaintance party will be on the month of septemebr wich makes me excited!! i mean, im really full of ethusiasm this coming september cuz my father is going to come here in the phils, gosh i miss him, then our aquanitance, like i said, will be on september, not really sure tho of what will i wear. but all i know is i gotta look good!! LOLS* finally! the rainy days have stopped, so far. and with examinations coming this week, i'll be setting my blog to hiatus mode, even my fs will be on hiatus mode. i just, i just gotta have high grades!! i mean, i need them, bcuz if i have them ill be having my cellphone for good!! but the deal is most likely 87 up grades not 87 below, and based on my classmates expirience, they told me that attaining highgrades will be hard for me especially this 1st grading. and im really scared about my math grades. i wish i pass i hope i pass. i really just dont get it, my teacher's teaching is soo fast. dang* and yes, were doing this "pinoyhenyo" at school. and im really enjoying it. @TLE we played taht game and happily, i guessed it and it's "fish pond" it's more exactly like this:

me:tao ba?
almaidah:hindi
me:pagkain?proseso?sakit?hayop?
almaidah:oo!
me:lumilipad?gumagapang?
almaida:hindi
me:tumatalon?
almaidah:pwede
me:lumalangoy?nasa tubig?
almaidah:pwede!!
me:isda?
almaidah:pwede!!
me:uhhh, isda? tilapia?bangus?hito?palaka?lapu-lapu?
almaidah:hindi!!!
me:nasa dagat?
almaidah:hindi!!!
me:nasa ilog?nasa FISHPOND?
almaidah:ayun!tama na! fishpond!
and then i got 2opnts! yey! hahaha,

Rain Rain Go away!!X)

2009-08-05T23:49:00.000-07:00

darn. why won't the rain stop?? it's killing me like hell. srlsy dude, and what's even worse is that im stuck in a computer shop, and i can't ge out cuz it's raining outside. MAN!WTF?? anyway, i think this day is somehow fine tho i can't really say what is nice when it is a rainy day and you forgot to bring an umbrella. FVVK. ok, this is cruel, im boiling up in here, but i'll try not too. im just really hungry and im effin tired. tired of running tired of hiding from the rain.GAWDD!! pls let the rain stop! oh well, even tho its raining, ive enjoyed this day cuz,first, danicx already recovered from her illness and ity's really nice to know and hear that, then second, dancel is all hyped up and acted retarded today, she's really crazy dude!! she sings even tho she's offkey and she dance even tho she looked like a drunken starnger. ha-ha!! im really happy today. then, i saw my crush!!! yeah, it's neutron/von dutch but too bad i just saw his back, but yeah it's alright. and uhm, it's our unit test in english and dayummmm!! our teacher is efiinn supaldo!! like siriously, he keeps on blabing and blabbing but siriousl, nothing good is coming out of his mouth. duh? hahaha, and im really excited for tomorrow, you know, cuz it's our unit test in MAPEH, so pray for me. hahaha, im so stupid right? instead of reviewing for our test, here i am in the fron of the PC, googling and blogging. hahahahaha, eek, maybe laturr, i'll review them, the test is just easy, no need for me to be scared or something. lols, and yeah, i need to go now:) TTYL.

[english?harhar]

AUG 3 2009:)

2009-08-03T01:00:00.000-07:00

NP: ADDICTED BY STEVE HOANG:) dang!! peste. answerte ko sa araw na to!! promise! d nga!!! pano kya, uhm. yiiiihh!! nangunguna naman ung kiligness ko kesa sa pagiging normal na tao. whaahah :p ok, eto nangyari. from first to the last. una, mapeh nanamin, papasok na kami sa loob, e syempre, hinihintay ko or tinitignan or hinahanap ko si goyang e wala sya, kaya pumasok na ko, syempre mejo malungkot kase hindi nkta si 6th crush. hahaha:)) and then dun ako pumwesto sa pinaka tabi ng bintana kasi wala yung nakaupo dun [si nikka] then pagtingin ko sa labas ng room, omg, papunta si goyang ska mga kamats nya sa tabi ng room namin [dun kse tlga room nila] then napatingin ako sknya, and then, nahuli ko syang nakatingin sakin! omg! siriously, walang biro!! nakatawa siya kasi parang may kinukwento yung mga klasmeyts nya pero hindi hindi sya nakatingin sa mga m8s nya, SAKIN SYA NAKATINGIN. gosh! bkt kya?? omg. hnd nmn sa pinapakilig ko sarili ko, pro, d nga! totoo tlga!! and then, syempre, MASAYA! kasi nakaraos na at nakasilay. whuu!! galing q! hahahah, and then, pumunta na kme sa english, then natapos na kme dun, pag alis namin sa room, pagbaba na pagbaba ko sa buidling ng rose, HOMG!!!! nakita ko agad si NEUTRON/VON DUTCH [bkt von dutch? cge, basa lang..] nakatambay sa tabi ng rose building,prng hinihintay niya ung kam8 nyang may black sa ilong.wahaahah, anyways, ayun, so naglaakad siya, nauuna sila and then kinikilig tlga ako!!! SYEMPRE.DUH? haha and then, nakita ko bag nya, VON DUTCH, von dutch na body bag!! kulay brown! hongga. may taste. haha, karamihan kse ng lalaki sa PHS backpack na malaki bag nila. parang mag ca-camping sa mount everest ng sampong taon. hahahahaha:DD anyways, susundan ko na sana kasi dadaan sila sa room namin, plano ko, uunahan ko sana pra maabangan ko sa room nmen, e peste si dansel, naiihi dw. pagkakataon nga nmn! hahahaha. e ihinh ihi n dw so pumunta kmng cr:(( waaaa. syang d ko nasundan, pro ok lng, makikita ko pa nmn siya sa science. oyeeaa;) hahaha. and then, ayun, nag vacant na kme pagkatapos ng filipino namen, then ayun sceince nanamin, tps natapos na kami sa science so paglabas ko, nakita ko si kerro-chan [4thYiiR] nyemas! pogi nya tlga! nak smile nnmn!! ayun, e alam mo naman si mam.canlas, masyadong nagagandahan skn kya inutusan nnmn akong ilagay ung bag niya sa cabinet dun sa orchids 6, e anak ng teteng, orchids 5 sila neutron/vondutch kya, aba! sumusnod nmn ako, ayun, nyemas, gandang view, nakita ko siya!! nakangiti!! kaso wala na siya sa labas ng room, pasukan na nila sa science so nasa loob na siya ng room, pro ok lng, nkta ko na sya. hahahaha!! ayun bali TLE nnmn, habang nasaloob ako ng TLE, sumusulyap sulyap ako kay kerro chan, then napansin ko, may sinasabi siya sa kam8 nya then ung kam8 nya nakatingin sa room nmn na parang may hinahanap. anu kya un?o.0 hahahaXDD,anyways, so cleaning time na sa TLE, so pinalabas kme at pinapunta sa garden. kameng mga hindi cleaners,and then nasa garden kme nila emily,dansel,leizel, ako. e nakaharap ako sa daanan tps kinakausap ko si emily, nakita ko, labasan na nila neutron/von dutch sa science, e napansin ko, ibang daan sila dadaan [LOL] so ayun, sabi ko sa sarili ko, sayang, hnd ko makikita, kase ganto yan, eto ung mahoganny building sa harap ng mahoganny building, daanan then orchids building then sa tabi ng mahoganny building eto yung garden then eskinita then euphorbia building. e db nga uwian na nila, kala ko sa harap sila ng mahoganny building dadaan, e mali, kumbaga sa highway, akala koright sila dadaan, left pla. so, ayun nagmukmok na ko, so kinausap ko lng si emily, then binaba ko blouse nya kase masyadong nakataas, while doing this, dumaan sa eskinita sa NEUTRON!!!!!!!♥ omg, so nakita ko siya, kasi ang nagseseparate sa garden at eskinita ay bakod lng na kahoy tps hanggang tiyan lng ang taas nun kya sympre kitang kita ko siya!! then omg, while dumadaan siya, nakangiti siya!!! tps napatingin siya skn, e akk, mejo nakaput ako kse nga bad3p kse kala ko hnd sila dadaan sa harap ng mahogannybuild. e better than what ive expected pa pla ung nangyari! geez! mismong tabi ng garden sila dumaan!! so nakita niya akong nakapout at naka simangot then nag hi siya skn, i mean wi-nave niya kamay nya den nginitian ako, punyemas!!! anak ng nanay mo!!! grbe, napangiti ako ng hanggang tenga tps nakita ako nila emily then tinignan kung knino ako nakatingin then nkta nila si neutron then nag "ayiiiie" sila then namula ako, tumawa si neutron tps umalis na. un lng. waaaaaaaaaa!!! hahaha, kakakilig!! nyemas!! ayun, edi uwian na, e si leizel tinakam n nmn ako sa siomai [haiku] then ayun, sb ko tigil muna kme sa haiku stand na un, tps kuame kmeng siomai, tig dalawa kme, so nageenjoy akong kumaen, nakatalikod ako, then pagharap ko, papunta si 6thcrush!!! so goya!!! omg!!! then sympre, mejo nahiya ako kse ang takaw kong kumain, buong siomai kse nilalamon ko. hahaha, ayun so wala na, nakadaan na sila, AKALA KO. hindi pla! nagstop din dun sa stand!! bumili ng gulaman! punyemas! waaa. kinikilig akk nun!! tae.tae.tae!!! and then umalis na pero pumunta dun sa katabing katabing tindahan ng haiku stand, bumili ng gfresh b un? ay! vfresh pla! ayun! so nakita ko, e kelangan ko ng umuwi, sayang! hnd tuloy ako makakapagpacute! hahaha. ayun umalis n kme! waaaaa. kinilig lng tlga ako ng sobra sa araw nato! napaaga ang valentines skn! wahahaha. nyemas! sana bbukas ulit. ay, hindi wag pala ako mag eexpect kasi ung mga unexpected, un ang nangyayari. db? knina kay neutron? kla ko hnd sila dadaan sa hrp ng mahoganny, kya aun, tps dumaan pa mimso sa eskinita. nyemas. whew! ganda ng araw nto. ♥

a blog for NEUTRON♥

2009-07-27T02:24:00.000-07:00

whew, la pasok ngayun, haay, nakakaboring. ugh. tapos nakakamiss. double ugh. >.< haynaku, sige, ang post na ito ay para kay neutron [3YiiR^^] kasi, naalala ko lang yung kabaetan nya. tapos iniisnab ko lang siya nun, triple ugh. then ngayun, crush ko na siya.sheessh mhen. ambait nya talaga. ako lang yung may topak, hindi ko napapansin mga ginagawa niya. naguiguilty tuloy ako. buti nga, tinulungan niya kami nung last friday, narealize ko na andsami na niyang nagawang kabutihan sakin tapos la akong isinusukli saknya. grrr. i hate myself. haynku, absta, crush ko siya. nyemas, naala ko nanaman siya. waaaaa:x sana utusan ako ni mam canlas bukas. waaaaaa. para makita ko ulit siya. takte. tapos, sana tulungan niya ulit ako. wahahaha. aynaku. kinikilig nanaman tuloy acu.sino ba namang hindi kikiligin?? O____________o nagiimagine na nga ako, na sana sumama siya sa feildtrip sa january tapos magkapareho kaming bus. osya,, diba? hahaha. walang imposible. :pp ok. masyado nama siguro akong ambishosa. ahahaXDD naku, speaking of that feildtrip, nakakaexcite!! yiiiih!! grabe, d nga. naeexcite ako. kaso, sana payagan si innah na sumama sa feild trip namen. kahit, parang imposible pero db nga?? walang imposible? at saka lilibre ko naman siya eh, kaya sana payagan siyaaaaaa. kesa aman sa ako lang magisa nun, o.pness ako nun. ugh, depende nalng kung close na close na kami ni neutron nun at magkasama kaming bus edi jackpot! wuhu!! hahaXD kaso hindi pwed yun kasi sophomore akk tapos junior sya, ang ownga pala, nakalimutan ko yung moral code :"walang imposible" haha:pp tapos, may nakita akong isang short love story, sheeeeesh. nagulat at napaiyak ako sa ending ng story, parang naawa ako dun sa guy, ang sama nung girl!! sobra!! ang swerte niya nga kasi may nadakot siyang guy na ganun. amf, kung ako lng yung girl!! talagang talaga!!! kasi ganito yan, eto yung story::

*"There was a blind girl who hated herself just because she was blind. She hated everyone, except her loving boyfriend. He was always there for her. She said that if she could only see the world, she would marry her boyfriend.One day, someone donated a pair of eyes to her and then she could see everything, including her boyfriend. Her boyfriend asked her, "now that you can see the world, will you marry me?" The girl was shocked when she saw that her boyfriend was blind too, and refused to marry him. Her boyfriend walked away in tears, and later wrote a letter to her saying..... "Just take care of my eyes dear." i'll always love you forever.."

odb?ang bad nung girl??? masyado siyang choosy pero yung shota niya hindi siya tinignan sa panlabas na anyo, tapos tignan mo, yung syota na pa yung nagsakripisyo ng sriling paningin para sa babae db?db??? got my point?? ang pait ng ugali ng girl!! sarap sapakin.siriously dude, hindi siya marunong pumili kung sino tlga ang dpt mahalin. haynaku, nahi-hig tuloy ako. lecheng babae yan. oxa, anyways, ayun, may pasok na bukas!!! salamat naman! makikita ko na ulit si neutron, ay teka, madami [as in sobraaaaaaaaaaaaang damiiiiiii] ko palang assignments. hala, sige magawa na nga. hahaha nag ca-cram pa naman ako lagi, ay! sa math may assignents pla kme. ugh, darn math!! nakakainis. bad3p, sana tuesday naaa. ay, tandaan ko pala na wag umasang tutulungan ulit ako ni neutron, ksi ung mga unexpected, un ung nangyayari. oha?? hahaXD cge, TTYL blog:)

butterflies in my stomach♥

2009-07-24T04:30:00.000-07:00

ok. masyadong mabilis ang mga pangyayari para sakin. as in, super bilis. parag kani-kanina lang tapos wala na ngayon. parang kidlat. haynaku. ang ewan nga din ng mga pangyayari eh. bakit kaya ganun? yung mga inaasahan mong maangyari yun and di nangyayari at yung mga di mo inaasahang mangyari, yung ang nangyayari. ok, weird right? pero, totoo yan. based on my own expirience. swear!! cross my heart and hope to die. LOLROFLMAO:) well, una, sadly and suprisingly, hindi ko na crush si 3rd yiir. haha. ok what now? lols. well, pinalitan sya ni 4th yir [kerro-chan it is;)] well. tae, i think sasabog ako tuwing nakikita ko sya. every good adjectives describe him. angelic face,maputi,matangkad,hindi sya PASAWAY,mabait,tahimik lang,humble,mas maraming kaibigan na lalaki kesa babae&;cute mag smile. osee? wholesome sya. san kp? harhar. siriously dude, i think i like him talga. men, nung one time [ok, ayan nanaman ako.LOL] paalis na kqmi sa room namin, so sila naman dun [exchange rooms kasi kami sa science. i know right? oyeeeaaXDD] and then, nung paalis na ako, papunta ako sa TLE room namin which is just a meter away from our science room. then nung naglalakad ako sa harapan nya [nakaupo kasi sya sa bench] syempre, tinitignan ko sya, hindi lang pahalata. LOL. ok, what can i say?XD and then hindi sya tumitingin sakin, ok, so what? dumerecho na lang ako. then nung nasa labas na ako ng TLE room namin, i peeked over our science room kung andun pa sya sa labas, then pagtingin ko, nakatingin din sya sa TLE room, parang may hinahanap? ok, i know you think what im thinking and i know that you think that im such a feeler. but who the hell cares? every girls would love to think/dream that her crush crushes her back. rightie girls? hahXD whew. then there i am, kinikilig na sobra. haha. lol. and then, there's this time. [it's not about kerro chan tho, mind you] our teacher in science gave me a task, ayun ay ilagay ang mga laboratory tools sa orchids 6 which is her room talaga. meaning, kung saan kami nag aaral ng biology, hidi sa kanaya yun, sa ibang teacher yun, nakikigamit lang si madam. ok, so, uhm. there, dalawa kaming magkaklasng nautusan [me&;erika danting] then ung lo-lock nanamin ung room, peste. darno. ayaw masara ung pinaka handle ng gate. masikip kasi, 'cuz bagong pintura lang siya. and then talaga tulo laway at pawis na kami ni erika, so naghanaphanap ako ng lalaking mukhang gentlema, eh parang wala, mukhang mga tamad mga lalaki dun, then i saw my ex crush's [3rdyiir] friend. geez. OMG. then i said "kuya, patulong" [lols. kua? haha] then he smiled and helped us, tho he was kinda strugling too. haha. but anyways, nasara nya ung pinaka hawakan and na-lock namin ung gate.. so mission accomplish. haha. and bcuz of that, crush ko na din yung kaibigan ng ex rush ko. omg, dati tinatapon at iniisnab ko lang sya. and then ngayon? darno. ang sama ko talaga. haha, i owe him a big thanks and maybe repay him by giving him a cheerfull smile. ohgee, sana maging close ko sya. ok, here i go again, i wont stammer again. ok. promise. gaaah!! im inlab♥ eeek. idk but i kinda get jiggly inside when i see these two men. gosh. lke what the heck, im supposed to concentrate on my studies not on boys. sheesh. hahaha. but i am concentrating. right. hahah. that's t for today flks glad ive told you this.

RANDUUM&;BORDUMMM

2009-07-18T05:31:00.000-07:00

WHAT WAS YOUR:
1. last beverage = milkk<':
2. last phone call = fatherr:))
3. last text message = NONE*
4. last song you listened to = you belong with me-taylor swift <33
5. last time you cried = can't recall n________n
HAVE YOU EVER:
6. dated someone twice = NEVER.pfft;
7. been cheated on = never.XDD
8. kissed someone and regretted it = Nope.
9. lost someone special = uhh,no:DD
10. been depressed = Many times.
11. been drunk and threw up = Never.
LIST THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
12. gray
13. yellow
14. light green
THIS YEAR HAVE YOU: (2009)
15. Made a new friend = YEP:P
16. Fallen out of love = you can say that again.pffft:/
17. Laughed until you cried = can't forget those times. LOLXDD
18. Met someone who changed you = uhhh.idthink so?
19. Found out who your true friends were = YESSSH:)
20. Found out someone was talking about you = uhuh @_______@
21. Kissed anyone on your fb friend's list = nope.
GENERAL:
22. How many people on your fb friends list do you know in real life = i dont have a fesbuk. okey?
24. Do you have any pets = nope. im not that animal-lover typo 3X
25. Do you want to change your name = sometimes yes,, sometimes no. RANDUUUMM!!
26. What did you do for your last birthday = honestly,.. i can't recall. ROFL:DDX
27. What time did you wake up today = 6:00. daang. i know, early right?;))
28. What were you doing at midnight last night = probably sleeping&;dreaming.
29. Name something you CANNOT wait for = MONEY,MONEY&;MONEYYYY @___@
30. Last time you saw your Mother = just a secund ago;))
31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life = my past mistakes:((
32. What are you listening to right now = in the way-NEYO♥
33. Have you ever talked to a person named Scott = scott? nah, wlang scott sa pinas. HORRHORR:xdd
34. What's getting on your nerves right now = the rain. makes me remind of something ://
35. Most visited webpage = YAHOO,YOUTUBE,FS,FSTALK:']']
ABOUT YOU:
37. Nicknames = jhen,siomai,jhe&;HOY:XDD
38. Relationship Status = single.. BUT NOT AVAILABLE.SARRY GUYS *evil lafff
9. Zodiac sign = scorpio;))
40. Male or female? = obviously a girl right?:D
41. Elementary? = CIYFCA.lalabb it♥.♥
42. Highschool = CIYFCA-pershirPHS-sekongyirr:L
43. College = still in HS.
44. Hair colour = reddishbrownish blackko.0
45. Long or short = long:oO
46. Height = idk. 'yikes! whahaXDD
47. Do you have a crush on someone? = me? puh-leaseee. i do, and aLOT of it:XX
48. What do you like about yourself? = myself. wahahaXD-make sense?LAWL:]]
49. Piercings = none.
50. Tattoos = none.grosss.
51. Righty or lefty = Righty, baby!
FIRSTS:
52. First surgery = Never.
53. First piercing = Ears.
54. First best friend = ca't recall. wahhaXDD
55. First sport you joined = icr:DD
56. First vacation = icr*
58. First pair of trainers = Trainers? WTH's trainers? O__o
RIGHT NOW:
59. Eating = cheff angelo's popcorn. YUMMMM:LL
60. Drinking = icedTEA:A
61. I'm about to = farrt. wahahahaXDD
62. Listening to = one of neyo's songs<;"
63. Waiting on = IDK, lol.
YOUR FUTURE:
64. Want kids? = Yeah, someday.
65. Get Married? = sooonn.
66. Career? = DEFINITELY.
WHICH IS BETTER:
67. Lips or eyes = Eyes.
68. Hugs or kisses = Hugs.
69. Shorter or taller = Taller.
70. Older or Younger = Older.
71. Romantic or spontaneous = Romantic.
72. Nice stomach or nice arms = Stomach.
73. Sensitive or loud = Loud, baby!
74. Hook-up or relationship = Relationship.
75. Trouble maker or hesitant = Trouble maker:DD
HAVE YOU EVER:
76. Kissed a stranger = Never, wtf.
77. Drank hard liquor = Once.
78. Lost glasses/contacts = nope.
79. Sex on first date = siriously dude? @__________@
80. Broken someone's heart = I don't know.
81. Had your own heart broken = Pfft, yeah.
82. Been arrested = nah.neverr.
83. Turned someone down = I'm pretty evil so yeah.
84. Cried when someone died = Who doesn't?
85. Fallen for a friend? = not yet. hahahaXDD
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
86. Yourself = YES!
87. Miracles = Uhuh.
88. Love at first sight = Uhuh.
89. Heaven = yess.
90. Santa Claus = NOPE:P
91. Kiss on the first date = ?:/
92. Angels = Yes, because I am one. LOL!
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
93. Had more than one bf/gf? = Never.
95. Did you sing today? = i always SING. mark that;)))
96. Ever cheated on somebody? = hell NO?!!
97. If you could go back in time, how far would you go, and why? = my CIYFCA YEARS:(
98. If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be? = IDK, lol.
99. Are you afraid of falling in love? = No. Kfine, sometimes. :b
100. Posting this as 100 truths? = i guess so. dang, it's soo looooooooong ya'know?:))

2009-06-17T02:06:00.000-07:00

gosh. idk what to say right now. basta, nalulungkot at nalilito ako. it's about my new school. ewan. nakakalito. minsan, masaya at nakaka enjoy, minsan malungkot at nakakapagod. ngayon? SUPER KALUNGKOT. lagi naman akong nagiisa. i mean, ugh. gusto ko nang umiyaakkk. dang. well, may kasama naman ako, 6 pa nga kami ea, kaso, O.P naman ako, so what's the point? shyot. namimiss ko sila innah,cj renren at mark. kung alam nyo lang feling ko. grbe. naiiyak talaga ako na hindi. ay, anggulo ko. nalilito din ako kung, nireregret ko bang matransfer s PHS o hindi. ugh.CRAP. ang hirap iexplain.. kung anjan lang mga friends ko, kahit hindi nila ako maintindihan, sure ako, ready silang makinig sakin at mapapatawa nila ako. MISS KO NA TALAGA SILA.as in. nakakaiyak mga pangyayari this week. pagod na ko. ayoko na...ata. hindi naman ako pwede bumalik sa ciyfca. HINDI GANUN KA SIMPLE AT KADALI.. mali ba yung desisyon kong lumipat ng school? teka, desisyon ko nga ba to? ugghh. ang hirap. sige, magsu-survive ako sa PHS, basta.. magkaruon sana ako ng bestfriend. yung kasama, yung handang makinig sakin. yung parang sila innah:( tapos, nung bumisita ako sa ciyfca, grbe, namiss ko talaga sila. isa pa, sa sobrang pagkamiss ko kay mark, talagang nasabi ko saknya yun. na miss ko talaga sya, den.. niyakap nya ko, 2 beses, ang sarap ng pakiramdam.. atleast, nung time na yun, sumaya ako.kahit panandalian lang. wish ko lang, sana.. magkita kami nila innah at mark sa sunday. para naman, nakikita ko sila. ugh. IMTHEM. eto read my latest confession in ftalk.

i confess.i miss alot of ppl.here in fstalk,in fs, in my old school, in myprovince etc.etc idk.i just feel like crying right now.siriously.. idkwhy.im really complicated.it's bcoz of my new school.ugh at first, i thot, it's ok na..but, right now, i feel like an outcast.i mean, im always alone well, they samahan me naman,but. im O.P so even if i have some peeps beside me.whats the point anyway?i still feel lonely.GAWD.FVCK.i miss them,i miss her, i miss him.kill me now. ugh.ugh.grrr idk what to do.idk if transfering to another school is a big regret for me or not.do you understand? no you dont? nvm. crapppppp!!! I MISS HIM.REALLY.REALLLLYY like, badly as in i want to cry right now.i want to feel his hug again. dang and then, i know..whenever i told him/them that i miss him/them they just say:i told you so. and then, that makes me feel more guilty of transfering to another school. ugggghhh!! rly.just stab me. siriously, no one can understand what i feel right now.i just wish, someone is right there ready to listen to me even thoi can't elaborate my problem that clearly.i just...NVM..

--added:i watched katrina halili&hayden kho's scandal lately.not just the dancing thingy.. THE WHOLE VID.and i was like @.@
anyways.. that's ol/

whenevr he smiles:)

2009-06-11T23:38:00.000-07:00

3 weeks in Pampangga High School. ayos naman at nakaka-enjoy. kahit minsan, nami-miss ko sila innah,cj at renren. marami na din akong naging kaibigan at madami ding nagustuhan. nahaha:) nagingfriendly ako at flexible. kaya naman ako ang naging president ng section namin. ayos diba? haha. habang patalagal, nakikita ko din ang mga tunay nilang ugali. yung iba, mabait,matulungin, at masayahin. yung iba naman, plastik,maldita,feelingera at sasa. may kinaiinisan akong dulwa sa mga mates co, preo hindi ko na ito masyadong dinidibdib. bahala na. basta, susubukan kong mag enjoy sa PHS tulad ng ginawa ko sa CIYFCA. masaya matutong magisa. i mean, yung, kaya mong mag isa, kahit wala kang kasama hindi ka nalulungkot. ganun kasi ag problema ko nung nsa CIYFCA ako. i guess, i changed alot. which reminds me, nung nasa ciyfca pa ako, gusto ko maging independent,flexible,silent and sensitive which i am now. im happy sa mga changes na yun. pero at the same time, im sad whenever i think about my ciyfca times. yung mga kabaliwan namin nila cj, mga kaingayan namin nila innah, which reminds me, nung wed. bumisita ako sa ciyfca and then, nashock sila. hahaha. namiss ko talaga sila and then, gumuho yung ciyfca sa kaingayan ko. hahaha. sabi nila, madami daw nakamiss skn. haha. im so lucky naman. anyways. sa PHS nmn tayo, dang!! may napupusuan na akong tao!! hahaha. si.. EWAN. hindi co lam name nya hindi co lam section nya pero lagi kami nagkikita and we met once nung orientation dpt. 3rd yr ngalang sya. gosh. nung thurs, nginitian nya ako ng matamis and i was like KINILIG! shooot* ampogi nya. haays. IM SO INLAB♥

Anthurium 5

2009-06-02T03:24:00.000-07:00

grabe! nakakapagod tong week na to!! una, dapat mag eenroll na ako sa sanlorenzo, kaso, umurong ako, ewan ko ba, ang ewan ko. hahaha. chuva, tapos, dun ako nagaral sa PHS, ung kinakatakutan kong school. wahahaha. NICE. tapos nun, may kasabay akong nagenroll sa pag enroll. wahaha. ndi ko lam name nya, PERO.. GWAPO XA!!!! as in, sabog!! hindi ko lam name nya or kahit ano sa kanya. S A Y A N G. haha. then, the next day, friday, bumili kami gamit, yeeaa, kakapagod. as in..tapos non, bumalik kami PHS nung saturday, and yeah, orientation kasi dapat, kaso ilan lng kmeng dumatig, 8 ang simula e 8:30 na, wala parin ung teachr, btw, andun din sa isang room ung nakasabay kong magenroll!! chenas, KASWERTEHAN NGA NAMAN O!! ahaha!! tapos, umalis sila, nabore ata, mag o orientation din kse ata sila, kso 3rd yr sila. iba kmeng room. then, mga 13 mins, bumalik ulit sila, ohgolly!! kinausap kme!! sabi, walang orientation, [nagtaka ako, e bkt nmn xa concern skn? pro anyways,, kakakilig!!] then, sbai ko, "pano ko nyan malalaman yung schedule ko?" ten sabi nya, tuturo ko sayo kung saan. waaaaaa. edi tinuru nya, then, kinopya ko schedule ko, hinintay nya talaga ako!! then, tinanong ko kung anongsection sya, kamalasan nga lng, ndi ko narinig. urgh! saka nde ko prn alam name nya. urgh ulit!! gaaah, then, pasukan na.. waaaa. kakakaba, takte, andaming tao, btw kasabay kong puasok sila gerald at charles, then, kinabahan ako, andun na ako sa orchids 9 which is our room in our first sub. grbe, may lalaki, oolala,, gwapo,,oolalala..aztig,,oolalalala♥ hahahah. then, andami naming girls, dulwa lng silang lalaki, ang aarte ng iba kong camates, i mean, nag e-eyeliner sila, nagli-lipstick,nagma-mascara, gosh, hindi co na kailangan nun dahil maganda na aco. ohaaaa.. banat. hahahaha!!!! cge till hirr*

A B N K K B S N P L A K o?!

2009-05-26T02:00:00.000-07:00

waaaaah???!!! parating na yjng school. gosh, hindi ko akalain na, ugh, NEXT WEEK na pasukan?? ohmy. buti nlng nalaman na namin ni maderr. haha:) kakabili lang ng mga gamit. shete, biruin mo, ansikip sa palengke, pinuno ng mga tyangge!! e, susginuo, parang ma-su-suffocate na ako sa sobrang daming tao e!! dioxco!! naligo ako ng pawis. ganond din naman si maderr, kaso, mas masaklap dinanas ko, taga buhat ba naman ako ng mga binili? hay naku. ayun, takte, hindi pa ako nakakaenroll!! hindi ko man lang sure kung saan talaga ako. dapat kse, bukas, mag eenroll na ako sa SANLORENZO, kso, masyadong mahal, i mean, 35k ba naman???!! OHMY,, e kung sa PHS na lang ako, 1k lang, kasama na mga books dun! ikumpara mo naman yung 35k sa 1k!! shutek, hahahaha!! nakakapanlaki ng mata gyud!! saka, kung sanlo ako, mag a-adjust na naman nyan ako, i mean, TRANSFEREE ako, wala akong ka-kilala, e atleast sa phs, madami akong kakilala, andun sila josephine,sila jhed sila alyssa raiza chuva ekek. kaso, maraming aktibidades sa sanlo na ferr sure, magugustuhan ko! hahaha:) ewan, i leave it all kay lord. haaayyss,, and then, lately nuong nasa pandayan kami, nakita ko yung a b n k k b s n p l a k o?? so, binili ko and binasa ko pagdating na pagdating sa bahay [duh? pumapalakpak na nga pwet ko sa sbrang excitement. lol] ayun, para akong baliw!!! maririnig nalang ako sa labas ng kwarto ko na tumatawa. hahaha!! ang ganda nya! grabe!! introduction palang, PAMATAY NA!! i think, 1 week ko syang matatapos. sosyal. hahaha:)) ayun, magsisimba pa ata kami mamaya, may prayer of nights pa, este night of prayers. haha. imma update pa yung grup ko. cge. hanggang dito muna*

new friends, new expirience:)

2009-05-23T06:38:00.000-07:00

gosh. nakakapagod ang week na to. nakakapreassure din. maraming masasaya,nakakakilig,nakakaadik na nangyari. lols. i mean, una, nuong tues ata yun? uhm, nag plao kaming kumain nila cj at renren sa mcdo, kso, nagpalit kme ulit ng plano, sa canten nlng dw, pro, naubusan na kme ng ulam, so sa mcdo na nga lng, kso time na, so sa lunch nlng kme pupunta sa mcdo, nung lunch na, guess what?? hindi kme pinalabas kse may holdaping chuva dw na nangyari. e, shokla, gutom na kame, so sa malapit nlng kme na kainan kakain, e tatlo yun, junjun's,ala creme and shandongs, if you don't know, ala creme ang PINAKA mahal sa tatlo, pero, dahil nga mga EWAN kme nila cj, ayun pa ang una naming pinuntahan, e 100 lng baon namen, so pumasok kme, tps, tae, hindi kami makaalis, kse nakakahiya, i mean, papasok ka dun tps lalabas ka? hahaha, watdfart?? so yun, binigyan kame ng menu, then,, naglaki mga mata namin nila cj at renren, 180 yata pinaka murang pagkaen, buti nlng may 1000 si ate ren, kundi, pinaghugas kme ng plato nun for sure! nahahaXD then, inorder namin yung, chicken platter and sphaghetti chuva sinfull cake[bongga, nakapag cake pa kme sa lagay namin nun. haha] then service water. aun, busogers nmn kme, kso, inabutan kme ng ulan. grbe!! pinaparusahan ata kme nun. hahaha!! then, thurs, may practice kme dahil nga nag volunteer ako sa aniversary ng ciy. una, o.p kme ni innah, then tinuruan kme nila sensei jhedidipotz,christipotz,kelpotz [hahaPEACE] ng mga dance steps, loka, nawalan ako ng oxygen nun! as in ang hirapp!! whew!! then, the next day, fri ata nun? hanggang 10 lng ako sa sumer class ko, aun, practice kme, pinag stretching kme, ung may transcope sumthing chorva eclavu un e? tae, ang hirap!! naninigas yung muscles ko!! tumatagaktak pawis ko, sama mo na laway ko!! haahah!! joke ln^^ grbe!! aun, practice kme, tps, pumunta kmeng brenzy giao, tumulong kme sa paggwa ng ballon, then, sa pins, then sa balloon ulet, naputukan nga ako sa kamay weh, ansakeeeeet. haay, pro njoy nmn! yeeeaa \m/ tps, ta-da!! SATURDEY na!! loka, nakaka-kaba. haaaaaaa. prftftr4rjru!!! hahahaha!!! then, practice kme, tps, dun kme nag pa-arte-fy sa dressing room, shukla, la ako ka-alam-alam kung pano mag make up. heller, chuva, hindi na kelangan ng beauty ko ang make up. ahahhaha! KAPAL!! lols:) then, nuong sumasayaw na kme [teka, madami pla akong mali nun. hahahaha] prang may sumthing akong naramdaman, woo, adrenaline rush? chuva, andrama ng lola mo. hahaha. actually, prang crush ko na si toooooooooooooot sound check 123. hahaha!! si PHSYCO nlng pra aus. hahaha!! grbe, ampogi nya. haaay, grrrr, dpt hindi lumalim to. nniwenfwmgiejf!!!! jajajaja!!! [gnyn ako naglalabas ng preassure, pasensya na. hahaha] aun, hanggang ngaun, 10:00 pm na, and im still gisingers nag u-update ng blog. whew!! haynaku, cge bukas nlng o kya next week, pra mas mahaba ang kwento ni lola basyang. in her 80's pra aus. hahaha:)

SUNDÄY

2009-05-16T22:05:00.000-07:00

nakakapagod this past few days. puro TRABAHO. letse. sa wakas, may pasok na. pero, nakaka-kaba. pano pag di ko nahabol yung goals ko? waa. wag naman sana. gusto ko rin kasai makalipat ng school. ayoko na sa CIY ang hirrap kase, pero syempre, mamimiss ko sila innah,cj,renren ska yung mga naging close ko. wahe, chuva. anyway, kakatapos ko lang magsimba. OMG!! patay na pla yung si bro.lito? hay, ambait pa naman nun. my deepest sympathy nalang. masyado palang dilikado ang tetano. ngayon ko lang nalaman. hay, tapos, kanina kasama ko sila innah at mark. haha, napapalibutan kami ng mga baby. tapos, nung nag doddle ako, sabi nila pangit daw, nanlait ba naman?? FTW? pati paa ko nilait nila. bkt ganun? maxado silang bad. haha* tapos, mejo nalate ako sa post encounter namin. pero ok lang. hindi naman TALAGANG late. then yung pinagaralan namin about sa sexuality. whew! hindi pla malaswa yung sex. actually, it's a god-given gift. ngayon ko lang nalaman. hay, nag eenjoy ako sa postencounter namin. haha:) ay, palapit na pala yung aniversary ng christ in you, as i know, volunteer ako, weh? sasayaw daw kami pero hindi naman kami nag ppraktis. hahaha. anyway, di pa ako kumakain, nigugutom na ako weh. haays. cge hanggang d2 na muna.

JHAYCEN

2009-05-14T02:45:00.000-07:00

:)a blog for them:) mamimiss ko talaga sila. SAGAD!! i still remember nung school start nun, fave song pa namin, "moment of truth-fmstatic" nakakamiss. ngayong lilipat na ako ng school, minsan ko nalang sila makikita. waaa! letse, ang ewan co. para na rin kse silang mga kafated co. JHAYCEN, name ng group namin. ng mga bestfriend co, sila ang mga katropa ko at sila yung mga tao na handang magpautang este tumulong sakin.

innah joshua teodoro♥ - sa aking pagka-alala, sya ang una kong naging kaclose. as in CLOSE:3 maingay sya, siga at palabiro. kalog, saka masarap kasama. masarap din barahin. wahahaha!!una, medyo ayaw ko sakanya, naging magkaaway pa nga kame nyan e, pero di ko aakalain, na yang pangit na yan, magiging "PARSZ" co! omg? hahaha. ang gusto co sakanya, palabigay sya. pwede kang manghingi ng pagkain nya, pwedeng maki-inom sa softdrinks nya pwedeng mangutang sakanya tapos nun, wag mo na paalala sknya. kahit minsan, brutal syang magsalita, ganon lng talaga ang paraan nya ng panlalambing. teka, weird tong magalit, inisin mo yan, KAKAGATIN ka nyan. hahaha. oo, nangangaggat yan, ehem, nahawaan ko pla xa. ako den pla^^ wahahaXD. absta, mahal ko sya for reals*
christine joy legaspi♥- isang inosenteng bata. para syang sanggol na kalalabas palang sa tyan ng nanay nya. hahaha. para din syang abnoi dahil kung tumawa sya, leche, basag ang mga salamin. tatawa sya, ang taas ng boses nya, as in sopranong soprano tapos malakas. got any idea of it? whew! tapos, wala yang kaalamalam nuong una, hindi nya alam ung mga stuffs na *adult [f.y.i pinagaaralan na namin yun nung time na yun so wag nyong isipin na ambata ko palang alam ko na yun. ok?] tapos, isang weird habbit nyan, pagpapatayan nya talaga yung isang bagay na pagmamayari nya. example, pizza nya, WAG mong kukunin, sisisgaw yan, mababasag eardrums mo, kung ako sayo, nakawin mo alang ng patago. hahaha!!isang bagay na gusto ko kay cj, laging may tubig yan. haha, daladala nya lagi yung jar nya kya pag nauuhaw ka, maki-inom klng sknya, SAVE kna. haha. ily penguin* imma miss yoh:]
krystlle laureen manalili♥- si ATE ren. matured at mala-maria clara:) very down-to earth at mapanglibre. nahaXD ska, reyna yan ng mga korean movies. puro pirata nga lng.haha, pag la ka pera pro gusto mong manuod ng mga korean movies or japanese man yan or taiwanese, ayan, manghiram klng kay ate ren wala pang bayad!haha, siriously talking, what i love about her, para syang nanay ko, pag may prob ako, or may masama akong nararamdaman [masakit ulo, masakit tyan] lagi syang anjan bbgyan ka ng payo or tutulungan ka. saka mabait yan, matalino pa, speaking of talino, pwede karing magpaturo kay ate ren, WALA DING BAYAD. odb? bongga, multi-tasking si ate ren! wahaha. ily♥

ily.sainyuu:))

worried?

2009-05-13T00:43:00.000-07:00

well, the title says it all. im kinda worried about transfering to another school. i mean, will my newclasmates like me? or will they hate me? nakakakaba. grabe. tuwing palapit na ng palapit yung pasukan lalo akong kinakabahn. parag sasabog aco. kase, tuwing maaalala ko yung mga memories ko sa CIYFCA. hay, parang nalulungkot din kasi akong iwan sila innah,cj,renren saka yung iba ko pang mga naging kaibigan don. naala ko yung mga kagagahan at kalokohan naming ginawa. weh? saka, pano kaya pag nakalimutan na nila ako o kaya, may pumalit na sakin sa jhaycen? waah T_T worried talaga ako. hindi ko talaga matago tng pagkatakot ko. kahapon pa ako ganito. shocks. ayun, masyado akong napagod sa araw na to, naghuags ng plato, naglinis sa taas nag hugas ulit ng plato, waaa im not a proffesional maid. wenks? hha. speaking of maid wala parin kaming nahahanap na kasambahay, sana nga meron na kaming mahanp para dyosco, matapos na tong kalbaryo ko!! haha. araw araw may inuutos, may dapat gawin, letse, ganto ba talaga tadhana ng mga magagandang katulad ko?? hahahaha. ayun, mejo magulo pa utak ko. saka, dulwa na acc. co sa ftalk, nakakamiss din kahit papano yung mga nasalihan kong e-groups dun tulad ng maingay na kasambahay,la familia royale, etc. weh, hindi muna ako magiging active nowadays sa ftalk, mag co-concentrate muna ako sa blog co. ayiiii. kinikilig si blog. wahahaha:) tapos mamaya aalis pa kami, mag chu-church kami. haiyst, miss ko na mga friend co. wah! saka boring dito sa bahay. la magawa. pero kahit ganon, ok lan, atleast nakakapag computer. bwahaha* well, ayan muna. --THE END♥

55 things to do in a theatre:))

2009-05-12T22:04:00.000-07:00

1. Throw popcorn in the air and yell, "It's snowing!"

2. Go, "Oooooh..." whenever anyone kisses.

3. Clap when the good guy gets killed.

4. During the previews, yell, "Can you fast-forward it?"

5. Whenever the bad guy is doing something devious, say, "Watch out!"

6. Laugh very loudly at all the corny jokes.

7. Tell the man selling popcorn that the bathroom is flooding.

8. Yell out what is going to happen.

9. Wear a cape and when its your turn to get popcorn yell, "I'm Batman! Hahaha!" and run away.

10. Say that they cannot sit next to you because you invisible friend already is.

11. Dress for every movie as if it were the Rocky Horror Picture Show.

12. Use empty chairs next to you as catapults with candy. Aim at specific people behind you and see if you can hit anyone in the back row.

13. Wear 3d glasses. Complain loudly how bad the effect is.

14. Bring a flashlight. In the middle of the film do shadow puppets on the ceiling.

15. Bring a remote control. Complain that you can't change the channel.

16. Sit front row, the minute the movie starts run out screaming.

17. Every time a character's name is mentioned do the Richmeister. (for a guy named Nick say, the Nickmeister, the Nickenator, Nickarino...)

18. Bring a beach ball. Toss it around.

19. Try to start a wave.

20. Become a bookie. Take bets on who will die first.

21. Sit in the back and throw eggs at the projection window. Every time someone curses cover your ears and scream, "No profanity!"

22. Sing with the theme music.

23. Bring and use your own air freshener.

24. At the ticket booth, request tickets for really old movies, "I'll have two tickets for the Goonies."

25. Throw spit wads on the screen. Try throwing them on the upper part of the screen so they can't get scraped off.

26. Pass around a collection plate and see if anyone contributes.

27. Point a laser pointer at the screen. Give the audience a laser light show.

28. Bring a book and a bright light. Start reading the book with the light on. When someone asks you to turn out the light, yell, "Shh, I'm trying to read!"

29. Use binoculars. Stare at the audience rather than the movie.

30. Bring a Nintendo laser gun. Shoot at the screen.

31. Clap loudly every time a person walks into the theater late.

32. When someone kicks the back of your chair, scream, "Ahhh, whiplash!"

33. Ask what the theater's return policy on popcorn is.

34. Ask the person at the ticket window, "Do you work here?"

35. Start a standing ovation at the end of the movie.

36. Quote all dialogue 4 seconds after it is said on the screen.

37. Get up frequently and leave the room while singing "Let's all go to the Lobby to get ourselves a treat"

38. Every time there is a gun shot scream, "Hit the floor!", jump on the floor, and cover your head.

39. Wear one of those "cat in the hat" top hats.

40. Get 3 people together and act like you are Crow, Tom Servo, and Joel from Mystery Science Theater 3000.

41. Before the movie starts, stand up, and imitate the Truth commercial saying, "The makers of this film couldn't find any way to make their characters rebellious, rockin`, or cool so instead, they'll just smoke."

42. When someone walks by you in the aisle scream, "Ahhhhhh! Bad Touch!"

43. Play musical chairs, getting up frequently and moving right next to someone sitting by themself.

44. Bring your own beanbag chair and sit in the aisle.

45. During a love scene, stand up and run to the screen shouting "Hooters!"

46. Before the movie begins, tape fart cusions to various chairs in the theater room.

47. Bring a portable air popper, pop your own popcorn.

48. Bring a watergun and shoot it at anyone who begins talking.

49. Tie a cardboard box around your waist and walk up and down the aisles shouting "Get your popcorn, peanuts!"

50. Cough really loudly right at the most important part of the movie, so nobody can here it, like when the killer’s name is going to be said.

51. Bring a flashlight and shine it on the walls or ceiling, in advance draw an outline o#*@!uy screwing a chick (or perhaps another guy), then cut out the outline and put it in front of the flashlight, so the image can be seen on the wall or ceiling.

52. Laugh hysterically during the sad parts in the movie, cry during the funny ones.

53. Smuggle in cans of roaches, locusts, ants, and other bugs that can annoy and reproduce quickly. You may even bring in some rats. Then sit in the very back, open the jars, and toss the bugs out on the ground. Since the floor is more slanted in the back the bugs will spread throughout the theater faster. Be sure to be the first one to raise and scream "There’s a #*@!ing roach crawling up my leg!" Then run out into the lobby and start yelling "there’s #*@!ing roaches in here!" Or "This theater is contaminated!" The theater will have to close down and fumigate the showroom(s), and after this little "accident" no one will want to go back to the theater anyway!

54. Bring a pager or cellphone and set them off every 5 minutes, you can also set off a watch alarm if you have a loud one. Say "Shh" every 5 minutes.

55. Pass by a room that’s showing a movie you’ve already seen, put your head into the room, and scream the ending.

just'RANDOM.v2

2009-05-12T01:49:00.001-07:00

Can't you see the pattern, we've been together forever, we've had ourfights, but this one just separated us for good .. we kept on coming togetheragain, never knowing that we would. Asking questions why this happened,How we got here ? Why we are here, but we all know the answers to that.It's because were true friends .. the ones that have never gave up on each otherbecause thats who we are. Were crazy, were loud, were weird but best of all ..Were best friends.

It hurts so much, but the girl still holds in her tears because she knows that everyone around her will still judge even if she tells them the truth about her.But that's life, you can't get your way all the time. And sometimes you just needto let go of everything and give something else a shot, and see how it turns outin the end.

We can be pretty intense, but no one has stopped us before, and i'm not about to giveup now, cause this is what real friends do; GO CRAZY, who else cares, it's our liveswere living, not yours.

because for some reason, i don't need you to tell me your leaving.Because, i'm pretty sure i know when your leaving, and when your not.But i hope that it wont come to the point when i have to face the factsthat your gone, gone for good.

You said you would never leave, why is that so hard to believe.The lies you've told have brought me this far, and i can't believei fell for them all. This relationship was a joke, and i mean it no matter what. It started off like a fairy tail, but ended like a nightmare. But it's funny, because the things you think love you, alwaysleave you; and when the things you hate, stay.It's something called karma, and i can't get away from it.

Can we call it truths, get this done and over with ?Cause i'm sick and tired of running everytime something happens.Or having my heartbeat everytime i here your name ..It's just not right, it's not right anymore.

And it's been over a year, and it still feels like yesterday we met.Sharing everything with you tomorrow, but staring into your eyes yesterday.I can't believe we got this far, i've never looked back until now, and for some reason ... i think it's time that i give up ..

Life isn't something to cry about, because. It's just life, whats the worst that can happen? Exactly, you don't know. neither will you ever know, because, youwont live to experience everything, No one ever has. But, that's just life,don't take it out on your self, when your the one thats going to suffer theconsequences.

And its like everything else around you, its pointless.Don't expect it to listen, cause they're all the same.

Do you really expect me to leave you for friends that have been there for me through the good and bad,no. i didn't think so, cause unlike you.They have a meening and they have a place and rolein my life .. and you. Your just that managerthat's trying to take over.

And no matter how much i miss you, i've gotta promise my self to never give up, and still moveon in life, becuase it's not about giving up,it's still worth everything fighting for and everythingi've done so far has been a risk, and theres morerisks i'm about to take, because that's life.You gotta live it, but more likely you have tolearn about life .. how else will you know whento take a risk or not, my point. Life isn'tthrown at you in one package, it'll come day by day, with a different task on your hands.

Sometimes, you have to reach for what you want,because most of the time, its not just goingto come to you ..thats life.get use to it.

&& Never in a life time is there a reason to let go of what has kept you hanging on all along.Because one day when you turn around and think it's been waiting for you ..It's going to be gone, because not everyone waits around forever,You say forever, and i say never.

And baby, i'm just another screw up that's been beat till she was 16.Yeah, i look like a chick thats been spolied till her heart exploded.But really, i'm just like all the other drugged up teenages.beat and careless.

And you know looking back on the days where we use to share everything.Share everything but a little kiss, because whenever you tried kissing me i'd run away .. those were the days.Days that we can't relive even if we wanted to.

just'RANDOM.

2009-05-12T01:36:00.001-07:00

Have you ever been so in love that it hurts to tell everyone around you,even your best friends .. Thats how i feel, only. I know I'm not in love .. it just feels like it.Because, my feelings for you are so strong .. And i can't help it. You've always been there for me,we've had our laughs and memories together .. and i just don'twant all of that gone when i close my eyes ..Because, everything i've done for our relationship,was worth it. Because in the end, we'll still be best friends.No matter what .. even if you mean more to me ..I'd rather be someone then no one to you ..

No one knows how i feel, losing people in a matter of weeks,months or even days. No one knows, because i can't trust anyonewith the secrets that rely on my life. I'm always asked constantly, who do you trust with your life ..I can't say, because. What if, in the end;that person isn't there for youwhen you need them the most. What were they all along ?Someone that just wanted to take a ride and see what it felt like.Well, at that point;there wish would've came true, because. Some people just don't know the difference between someone that really cares, and someone that you don't know, but cares moreabout you, than anyone knows.

I'm not who i was a couple of years ago, i've changed.Along with the rest .. new attitude, new clicks, everything.But that's who we are, i didn't change to meet someone'sexpectations, because that right there. Isn't who i am, and never will be.That's one thing i promise my self everyday .. I don't want to live a lie, I don't want to be somebody I'm not just to fit in.If that's the case, that's just telling me i wasn't good enough before.

&& I'm not about to give up .. i've come this far;and I'm not backing down now.All that i've done, has been a risk;a risk for my life, and for humiliation, I'm not gonna leave ..And no ones going to make me, 'cause this is my dream;and for once. It's finally coming true .. and I'm succeeding.No time left to back down and make second thoughts, just go for it.

Have you ever felt as if someone you loved, loved you too;but you just didn't know.And you were to scared to ask that person because you thought they'd say no.Why not take a risk? Things could be worse, And by doing this, your just hurting no one but your self ..Step up, make a stand, tell him how you feel .. tell him, you love him.Because that's what life is about, living.Not hiding, being who you are, because you don't care what othersthink of you ..that's what this is all about.

&& I never thought i'd say this, but. i think it's time we move on ..we've been through a lot already, and i don't want to get hurt in the end.We've had our laughs, and now it's time to say goodbye .. because.I know for a fact, this isn't going to last.

And who said that I'm the one giving up, but all along, i've reallybeen the only one trying to make this work.not you, but who am i to blame ? Even if i tried .. who knows if i did something wrong ? We need two to play this game, and i don't plan on playing alone.

It's like a board game, you've gotta play with someone, but someone that doesn't cheat.Because, in the end when you find out, the games over.And that board game isn't ever played again, at least not by the same people.

And, it's not that i miss you, it's just i miss the times we've had.It seems as if we both gave up so fast, and it only felt likewe've been together for 2 minutes.No longer, and nothing's happened yet ..But , i only wish.

Can you love me like i love you ..Can you care about me like i care about you ..But better yet .. can you appreciate the fact of me still being here.After all we've gone through, you think we'd be done ..But; we're still together, and were best friends forever.

Hah, yeah. We might be a little crazy sometimes, but who cares.We scream random noises, run through strawberry patches in our heads.Tell each other the dumbest secrets, do something we thought we'd never be able to pull off, laugh until we cry because that's who we are.

And i'll listen to that song over and over again, because every time it seems to get to me.Like when you whisper in my ear, It's like our song is playing.And all i think about is you .. and act like no one else is around,But you don't know feeling, and you never will.

So, highschool is highschool, nothing's wrong with it.Except for backstabbing friends and the rumors from hell.But who cares, you know the truth, and you know who yourreal friends are .. yeah, sure. It's hard to leave the otherones behind, but you have to do what you gotta do.nothing's holding you back, only yourself.And you've gotta do what's right, not wrong.'Cause in the end, you'll be the one getting hurt.Not anyone else, because they caused this to happen.

&& I don't plan on giving up now , it's just that. Now that we've gotten so far, i don't want to turn back yet after everything we'vebeen through. I don't want to be the one to blame for all of this.Because, overall. I'm the only one that tried .. and the only one thatcared about anything or anyone.

It was the last day, the last day that we will ever spend together.And knowing that we'll be gone forever, and not even a phone call can bring us back together makes this worse, I can't believei'm actually saying this, but it's for the best .. for the ones i care about,for the friends that have always been there for me no matter what,for the ones that have come back for me in the end,For the ones that have made me understand what life was really about.To the ones that helped me find love, and made me who i am today.It's not that i want to leave .. but it's because i have to.You never knew what you had until it left, and me .. i'm not stickingaround anymore. Somethings have to be done .. I'm not going to sayGoodbye because who knows, maybe one day. We'll be together again.

bored/

2009-05-11T21:23:00.000-07:00

nakakaineeep. hay, walang magawa. buti nalang nanjan si computer. haha. ay teka, may i cocon-pess ako, sa 3 years ko dito sa pampangga, ngayon ko lang nalaman na may kapitbahay pala akong CUTE. letse, whew! junior name nya, badoy pero cute sya. naku naman. ang ewan ko. hahaha. tapos, eto, patambay-tambay sa nautical-twilight.com para may magawa. lols. ayan, kakatapos lang mag advance. ayoko na atang mag summer, nakakapagod, kung wala lang yung crushko dun hindi na ako nag summer. haha. anyways, masyadong DULL ang life co. masaya pero malungkot. haa? anu daw? lols* well, im not realyy in the mood to write in my blog today but as i have promised myselp, i have to. anyways, im really complicated. well, many thoughts are lingering in my mind. like, when i transfered to another school, will i be okay? i mean, im not realy good at adjustments but i guess taht's part of life. and ive learned that we have to face our fears because sometimes, it's how we learn. well, uhm, i can't hardly think of what's going to happen when i transfer to another school, im confident, (hellyea!) but i still worry at some things. ayan. english yan, bigla kasi akong tinamaan ng spiritong inglesyera. wahaXD but proud ako sa sarili ko kasi, natutunan ko pagandahin tong blog ko, kasi, hindi talaga ako titigil habang hindi ko nalalaman kung pano nagawa ang isang bagay. as many have said, masyado daw akong inquisitive o kaya mapagtanong. haha. i'll be going na. i still have many things to do kaya ayan muna. hanggang dituu nlahn*

im >>TIRED<<

2009-05-10T22:50:00.000-07:00

takte, nakakapagod araw nato! whew!! biruin mo 3 hours [or more!]
kaming namasyal/naglakad sa palengke. tapos, andami pang tao sa bank. shutek. anyways, gusto ko ulitin yung hana yori danggo kase,
gusto ko sya i-compare sa boys over flower. kase, hana yori danggo, japanese version sya, ung BOF, korean version. e nainlab/naadik din ako sa BOF kya ayun, gusto ko sila pareho. hahaha. tapos, nagustuhan ko din yung kantang, "FLAVOR OF LOVE" by utada hikaru/ [err,, hikaru nga ba?] ganda grabe! XD letse, ang init dito! tumatagaktak ang pawis ko. grrr. ayan, SA WAKAS!!! wala na rin ang bagyo, meaning, wala nang ulan meaning, wala ng palaka! haha. atleast, makaka-kilos na ako ng maayos ngayon, saka hindi na ako mapaparanoid. wee. thank you lord. nahahaXD ima share something, nuong kapanahunan pa ni bagyong emong, inuutusan ako ni mama na maglampaso so kinuha ko yung mop, wala akong ka-alam alam na may naka sabit pala na 6[s-i-x] na palaka sa parang hair or ung pamunas mismo ng mop. gosh! daig ko pa nga palaka nun ee, mas mataas pa talon ko sakanila. hahaha. im glad wala na yung ulan, im glad MAY CONNECTION NA:) hahaha, well, sige, aayusin ko pa friendster ko. that's oll for now.

MALOKO:)

2009-04-30T03:39:00.000-07:00

nahahaXD. nakakatuwa ang araw na to. i mean, gumawa kami ng mga panukso sa mga kinaainisan nmin na boylet. pwahaha *evi laugh* example.. prokopyo tinaklaan,hulyo libagan.. nahahaha!! i know, masama kami. well, mas masama sila, biruin mo, may mystery man na nagbato sakin ng flower, nyeh? joke lng, eraser talaga ang binato sakin. akalain mo yun?! grrr. well, siguro nagandahan lang talaga sakin. iba na kasi yung mga magaganda, pwahahaha. [kapal!!] aii. eto pa, matinding balita, nakita co si drummer boy! waaahh. amfugge prn nia grbe!! walang nagbago. teka, mali ata, arayt, HINDI CO NA PALA SYA CRUSH. hahaha:0 ewan, gwapo sya pero wala na, tapos na ako sakanya. hahaha!! saka may tooooooot na ako. fresh from ____ imported na imported. whhaXD so no need na kay drummer. lols. haiii. i know, napaka urrur ko. wahaha. that's why im BEAUTIFULL. [kapal!] haha/